I Do

You took my hand and with trembling fingers

Slipped on a simple band of gold

With a voice strong and sure

You said, "I do."

Why did I hope so?

why didn't I see, why didn't I know!!

Why can't you hear this scream

deep inside me, an  agony.

You held my face and kissed my waiting lips

Where did that gentleness go

Or were my eyes so clouded I could not see

There was no reality , it was just a dream.

Tied to this bed of shame, you enter into me,

you take with little regard for this lie of passion

You destroy so easily, this, that you called love.

You violate my spirit, as you violate my love.

I lay wide eyed and empty late into the night

Looking back to that day still wrapped in tissue,

Soft satin and lace , yards of filmy innocence

My tears fall shimmering splashing crimson red on white.

I finally turn, and close my eyes to the past,

it is no longer there, canceled , empty air

I struggle, fight to see past this, to the future

I shudder to see, the tunnel dark and empty

With a whimper I feel your hand touch me,

God no, will this ever end

The emptiness within deepens

As I release my soul to the winds.